ArtashNikki

Sometimes in our lives we did something or made decisions out of anger, out of pride or it’s because we wanted to prove something to anyone and to ourselves. We wanted to tell the world that we are a person of worth. We don’t want to be called loser, right?

Last night, as I was gone to sleep I’d realized and question myself why am here, miles away from my family. All my life, I have never dreamt of being away from the people I love. But why am here right now? Is it out of pride, anger or maybe I just wanted to prove to them that I can do something on my own? Yup, maybe one of them was the very reason am here. But I don’t have regrets because everything’s happen for a reason.

God will not give us problems that we cannot bear. Now, I can say to myself and to my family that I am now a better person, someone to be proud of. Know y I say this? Because before I was never proud of myself, I’ve always felt am useless. And that I have nothing to give to my family. At least now, I have tried my best to be strong for them, to fight every moments of my life specially now.

I know someday, we’ll be together again. I’m hoping and praying that soon we can live as one family of course with my baby and with my husband.

I miss them so much.