ArtashNikki

Today, as I’ve heard the laughs of my officemates, I did realize that it was quite a long time since I didn’t laugh. Since I came here, I can’t think of the time when I laugh wholeheartedly. I can’t find any reason to laugh. I don’t know why, maybe because of the distance between me and my family. Honestly, I miss the feeling of; how it feels to have a good laugh like you care no one. Laugh that makes your tears fell down because of happiness. I really miss laughing with the people I love. Am I too serious? I just don’t know how to laugh. Though I can smile, give my smile to everyone. How I wish to be with them, with my trusted friends.

Writing this blog makes me cry maybe because I felt so alone, no one to lean on in times of my loneliness. I hope one day, I can find the reason of laughing again.

YES! weekend time again.. I can eat njud all i want, hehehe…Ramadan mn jud here. Most of my officemates go on fasting, as in no food from 6am to 6pm daily for one month.. Naapil npudko ani ky bawal mn sad mg eat dri ofc. Can you imagine yourself eating once a day? as in one full meal per day,..like me…usually i eat my full meal after ofc hours like 5:oopm, inig abot sa accomodation, eat dyon me dghan,hehehe…banat jud,,,hehehe…

may i enjoy my weekend… hehehe

Sometimes you just don’t get to understand your feeling, maybe because of too much stress and pressures with the people around you. Nonsense ads on TV makes you cry, maybe because your heart is heavy enough with the unexpressed emotions or problems that would bother you from time to time. Or maybe, you’d just missed someone so dearly. Unfathomable minds and hearts that most of the time would cause us the pain inside.

Why am I posting a blog like this? Because I, myself experienced this weird feelings. I would cry with the nonsense things I’ve seen on TV. Though I can barely express my feelings to my family but I know not al the time they will get to understand me because I know the feeling is not the same; the feeling of being miles away from them.  

I don’t know where to start with this. Nangigil mn jud ko oi with the people whom I thought deserves with my respect and trust. I was and is very disappointed with this particular person. A roommate of mine for about 5 months now, I trusted her. I thought she could be a model to us because she older than us, I mean her age. She’s like a mother to us, in spite of her flaws we respect her, treated her like our “Tita”. But you know what guys? It was last night, when I was disgusted and disappointed as well. Actually, we are 5 in one room (rent the whole room, not as bed spacer). What she did without our knowledge, she tried to negotiate na pala with one of her friends in Abu Dhabi to transfer into another accommodation without informing us. Isn’t it unfair? Nkabalo nlng me na mutawag na sya sa tag-iya sa flat (room) to ask permission that she will be leaving on the last day of this month. Dalahon pa nya iya pamangkin and if I’m not mistaken, damayon pa nya dala amo isa ka roommate. One room cost 2600 AED, that means we have to divide it by 5 which cost each of us 520AED. Now, if 2 or 3 of them will leave, how about us the 2 remaining person na ng rent, we don’t have the money pra itapal and because of that, saan na kami pupulutin, sa labas ng bahay?

Why are these kind of people still existing, selfish people, inconsiderate,.Kay naa na sila mabalhinan, Ora-orada, mamiya na sila.. Maau ba gud na? oh God…. I don’t know. ..Hay!!! Anyway I believe in BAD Karma..